Becoming Unstuck
This is a blog about self-transformation: An underdog story from perennial failure to fulfilment. One that has to happen rapidly too. And should be very relatable for anyone in a similar boat (there’s plenty of us floating aimlessly through life).
Who am I to write this story?
My name is Remy, but this blog isn’t about me. It’s about solving universal problems using my experiences as examples.
I’m not some guru. In fact, I can’t pretend to be much at all.
I’m 28 years old and I have no formal qualifications — having dropped out of university multiple times. In fact, I still work in the same part-time retail job that I’ve had since I was 16. A major reason for my ongoing failure is that I’ve been working from a cracked foundation – my health. I have been plagued by chronic fatigue and brain fog ever since I went vegan as a 19 year old.
Despite my failures and setbacks, there is one thing I can lean on as a source of pride and motivational fuel: Fatherhood. Though it’s also the reason that I have to get my life on track ASAP. And the backdrop for why I created Toomanymind…
The goals at the heart of Toomanymind
It’s quite simple really. I just want to:
- Create financial freedom and escape the rat race
- Build an aesthetic physique in spite of my skinny-fat genetics
- Reclaim my health by fixing my fatigue and brain fog
Why I’m Confident
Though I am objectively behind in life and I have failed more than most will ever try, I have a few things to fall back on that give me confidence of my inevitable success:
- I am not stupid. But I am wise enough now, after numerous setbacks, to accept that I’m also not as smart as I’d like to think I am.
- I am one stubborn bastard. When I was at my absolute worst, with fatigue and brain fog so chronic that I was basically a zombie, I still managed to endure as a semi-functional member of society to the point that few people even knew I was struggling.
- I have solved difficult problems before:
- I fixed my chronic neck and shoulder pain when professional help failed me and avoided surgery.
- I have functioned in spite of severe anxiety and OCD most of my life, and I managed to claw my way out of a pit of depersonalisation/derealisation that had me borderline suicidal.
I may lose a lot, but I don’t quit. And if you’re not a quitter, eventually you’ll become a winner.
Why “Toomanymind”?
The name comes from my favorite scene in The Last Samurai.
Quite simply, it demonstrates the Zen concept of Mushin (no mind) — total immersion in the present moment, free from overthinking and conceptual analysis. Given that I have been so handicapped by my own anxiety, or “toomanymind,” it seemed like a fitting name for a blog focused on getting my life together.
Plus, The Last Samurai is my favorite movie, and I love Japan, Japanese culture, and Zen philosophy. I endeavour to channel the simple pointedness of Zen in my writing.
What’s Next
See you soon. I’m focusing on transforming my physique at the moment after years of misguided skinny-fat transformation attempts.
Cheers, publishing Tuesdays and Fridays.
Remy
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